Sheep among wolves

I was grasping at straws.

JR was unraveling in front of me on his supper break at 2130hrs.

There was nothing I could say and what I tried fell flat.

He left and I crawled into bed to pray. I opened my Bible. We needed words full of truth to cut through the chaff. I continued on my reading Matthew and the the Lord answered my heart.

Reading of the Disciples being sent out...

"Look, I am sending you out as sheep among wolves. Be as wary as snacks and harmless as doves." Matthew 10:16

The rest of the verses read on to say what the disciples would face and it wasn't a pretty picture.

There is no easy road to eternity. As a Christian what we experience here on earth though is the worst it will ever get.

JR is a sheep among wolves right now. I have to trust that the Lord, his shepherd will lead and guide, protect and encourage.

Praying for encouragement today...

On Days Off

Lying in a hotel room bed by myself, I should be enjoying the time to sleep in but have been awake since 5am. After two years of very interrupted nights I have difficulty sleeping a solid set of hours.

I kidnapped JR for a night in the middle of a stretch of Days On. I needed some time with him. He was pleasantly surprised by the gesture and enjoyed supper out and a relaxing evening at the delightful little hotel in town.

JJ and Tiny Bear are just a short drive away at home with a sitter.

JR is out on an early morning call. I knew this was a good possibility which is why we didn't go further from home. Hopefully he makes it back so we can still enjoy breakfast together.

In the meantime I have no place to be, no diapers to change and no one asking anything of me.

3 more hours til duty calls and my 16 hours off is done.

Sunday Confessional

The watched the first episode from the treadmill, the second finished with a bowl of popcorn and the third started with some Heavenly Hash.

I completely understand that number 2 & 3 cancel out number 1.

JR left on course today. I'm catching up on old episodes of Grey's Anatomy.

I don't watch a lot of tv anymore for many many reasons, but I've been justifying watching an episode while I do intervals on the treadmill.

Even when things were bad between us, like really bad, really really really bad, really....ah, you get the point...I always felt blue when he was away.

It's an even deeper absence felt since things have been so much richer.

Blue doesn't even touch how I feel tonight.

I'm grateful.

It speaks to a reconciling love between us.

...but it does mean that I'm on my fourth episode of Grey's Anatomy for tonight.

However, it didn't start with food.

Small victories. ;)

Surprises

John Rambo brought me 18 red roses yesterday.

He was thoughtful enough to get them from the grocery store and bought them on the cheap.

With a beautifully eloquent card, to a wife, for Mother's Day.

I asked if he actually read the card.

Yes, he had.

Just checking.

Scribbled inside in penmanship I rarely see anymore...

"You are the spice that makes life worth living."

It was just what I needed to read.

We've come a long way.

He gets me.

Conversations

While on a supper break at 22:00hrs, Jr stopped by to grab a nibble.

JR - Look at my pants.

Mrs. R - What about them?

JR - See the scuff marks? (He points toward the front of his shins)

Mrs. R - Yah? (Kinda shrugs in a nonchalante kinda way. What is so special about dirt on your pants)

JR - I got in a fight.

Mrs. R - Really? (interest peaked)

JR - Yah, taking a guy down who was resisting arrest.

Mrs. R - And I take it you won?

JR - Yah.

Mrs. R - That's what I like to hear!

*High Fives all around*

On Success in Marriage...

"...be so busy paddling the boat you don't have time to stand up and rock it..."

Paul Harvey